some days
i am more wolf than woman
and i am still learning
how to stop apologizing
for my wild
-nikita gill
yokairy tavarez
pronounced:
JOH-KAI-ree Tah-VAH-REZ
i'm eccentric, yet traditional. i shop way too much, but i cannot bring myself to overspend on any one thing. i love my kids to the point of smothering, but i adore, strive for and maintain my independence as a woman above all else. i watch more television than the average person and honestly believe the major motion picture association of america has been kept afloat during these rough economic times because of my addiction to new releases. i bleed marvel for life, can quote pride & prejudice as easily as pirates of the caribbean, placed in gryffindor with ravenclaw rising, honor the 7th hokage naruto uzamaki, pledge house stark to the death, and am loyal to the one true king of the pirates, monkey d. luffy. i'm a little bit of a tomboy mixed in with a fashionista combined with a fierce and protective mother and sprinkled with aggression, style, compassion, and a terribly off-color sense of humor.
basically: i'm complex.
when i was a little kid, there were two choices for me: attorney or writer. i knew i loved the law because frankly, i was probably the only ten year-old in the world obsessed with law & order. but i always wanted to write.
fast forward: after graduating high school at the academy of mount saint ursula, i started as a freshman at cuny john jay college of criminal justice, majoring in legal studies. i started working for a sole practitioner in the bronx, first as a secretary, and eventually as a paralegal, and i’ve since become a double-certified mediator in divorce and child custody/visitation. with two decades in the legal field, i now have my own firm, still legal, llc, wherein i provide pro se clients with general legal assistance.
on a personal note, i got married, moved to florida, and had a beautiful little girl, and then my gorgeous son. here’s the condensed version of events: it was too hot, so i moved back to new york.
i always knew i wanted to write because i was just itching to say something, anything, to anyone who would listen. that's why i have a whole lot of stories to tell. none are about me; in fact, they aren't always about anyone i know. but they are all tales spun from my wild imagination and a penchant for ridiculously long-winded and detailed dialogue. most of the time, i’m that oddball you drive by that’s sitting in the car talking to myself because i just heard a conversation in my head (or belting out a one-woman musical concert). I write as it comes with no outlines or even much sense, so i would probably never be qualified to teach a course on creative writing.
i draw my inspiration from the women i know, the women i see; all women- the survivors, the fighters, the ones labeled aggressive and angry, even though we all know that’s just code for a female that won’t take anybody’s crap. as a child of immigrants, my voice is hugely influenced from having grown up in a one-bedroom apartment in the bronx. and i'm a womanist through and through, from womb to tomb, so i don't really know how to write a story where the female protagonist doesn't kick some serious ass.
over the last several years, i've completed five manuscripts, a compilation of short stories, a musical, and i’m working on the finality of a trilogy and two other manuscripts that i hope to finish soon. I also started to co-author a children's book with a good friend and fellow authoress, nakia d. johnson (author of uptempo, available for purchase at www.nakiadjohnson.com).
i still love the law, as evidenced by my career choices; but i have an unrelenting and unforgiving fire inside of me to write and let out words i wasn't even aware existed (and many i make up along the way). i don't know how not to write and i hope i never have to.
right now, the immediate goal is simple: watch my kids grow into whoever they are becoming as happy, healthy, and successful human beings, regardless of the life they choose to live. i hope that some of the passion and fire to write and express myself has been passed on to either or both of them, in whatever manner. i hope they learn a way to find the laughter, beauty, and tragedy in everything they encounter, the way writing has done for me.
for myself, i hope to to see much of the world, to appreciate what's come before me, and try my best to leave my mark for what comes after; to have become the kind of adult i needed when i was a kid; to share my words and stories with the world and hope that they feel in reading what i felt in writing.
and to one day sit back in a movie theatre seat and look up, smiling, and read those magic words on the screen: